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meganlynn09Title: Comes From Nothing at All (lyric from Damien Rice song)
Author: meganlynn
Pairing: Kara/Lee
Rating: PG-13/R for implied sex and other things
Spoilers: One tiny one for the second half of season 2. It's
barely noticed, a name and idea that I took in a completely
different direction. I wanted to explore the idea of Lee
going insane, and Kara trying to help him after reading a fic
the other day.
Disclaimer: I do not own anything BSG. I'm just borrowing.
Summary: She frakking hates herself for that.
Part One of Four
She hates that she feels superior to him in any way. She hates that she can see him come apart at the seams. She didn't know about Gianne. Doesn’t want to know about her because she's dead and he doesn't want to think so but he does. She didn't know that Gianne was pregnant, and that Lee knew. She hates that she's a better pilot and that that makes her special. But she thinks Lee is special and that the Cylons were wrong.
Kara never thought about Lee with another girl at the time. She was with Zak and deliriously happy, blind to everything else. She knew Lee first, through flight school, they were friends, and with Zak around, they were brother and sister. Except they weren't. She didn't know anyone that was attracted to their brother. She never thought that she would ever want to be with Lee.
They were never best friends. They were friends until they had nothing else after the end of the world. Then they only had each other. But when Zak was alive, she knew well enough that Lee didn't want children. That meant commitment, and he didn't want that. When she finally found out about Gianne, she was upset that she wasn't surprised, that she thought, "Of course."
"I love you. I didn't always, and I don't know if I always will. But if something happens tomorrow, at least you know I do now."
The Old Man didn't know about what was happening in his son's head, but Kara could see that his son's suffering was affecting him. After his oldest son died, but not, several times, he was at a lost of what to do. Kara didn't even know what to do, and what she wanted to do was out of the question. The Old Man wanted to protect his son, but now the opposite was expected, and Lee didn't question that anymore.
She wondered if Gianne had the baby. She knows now that if Gianne was alive and came to Lee, he would go. If the baby were alive, he would take care of her. If the baby was a girl. She doesn't like to think about it too much. Those thoughts make her glad that Gianne and her possible baby were on planet when the attacks happened. She frakking hates herself for that. She hates Lee for that too, because she knows he sometimes thinks the same thing.
"Kara, if you were pregnant right now, would you keep the baby? Stop protecting the fleet, wait a couple months, and have a child that you most likely will love more than anything? I was just wondering because I think you would. I have no reason to ask, it's just, I was wondering if you ever thought about it. I don't care who the father would be. I wouldn't want to know anyway, it wouldn't be me."
Author: meganlynn
Pairing: Kara/Lee
Rating: PG-13/R for implied sex and other things
Spoilers: One tiny one for the second half of season 2. It's
barely noticed, a name and idea that I took in a completely
different direction. I wanted to explore the idea of Lee
going insane, and Kara trying to help him after reading a fic
the other day.
Disclaimer: I do not own anything BSG. I'm just borrowing.
Summary: She frakking hates herself for that.
Part One of Four
She hates that she feels superior to him in any way. She hates that she can see him come apart at the seams. She didn't know about Gianne. Doesn’t want to know about her because she's dead and he doesn't want to think so but he does. She didn't know that Gianne was pregnant, and that Lee knew. She hates that she's a better pilot and that that makes her special. But she thinks Lee is special and that the Cylons were wrong.
Kara never thought about Lee with another girl at the time. She was with Zak and deliriously happy, blind to everything else. She knew Lee first, through flight school, they were friends, and with Zak around, they were brother and sister. Except they weren't. She didn't know anyone that was attracted to their brother. She never thought that she would ever want to be with Lee.
They were never best friends. They were friends until they had nothing else after the end of the world. Then they only had each other. But when Zak was alive, she knew well enough that Lee didn't want children. That meant commitment, and he didn't want that. When she finally found out about Gianne, she was upset that she wasn't surprised, that she thought, "Of course."
"I love you. I didn't always, and I don't know if I always will. But if something happens tomorrow, at least you know I do now."
The Old Man didn't know about what was happening in his son's head, but Kara could see that his son's suffering was affecting him. After his oldest son died, but not, several times, he was at a lost of what to do. Kara didn't even know what to do, and what she wanted to do was out of the question. The Old Man wanted to protect his son, but now the opposite was expected, and Lee didn't question that anymore.
She wondered if Gianne had the baby. She knows now that if Gianne was alive and came to Lee, he would go. If the baby were alive, he would take care of her. If the baby was a girl. She doesn't like to think about it too much. Those thoughts make her glad that Gianne and her possible baby were on planet when the attacks happened. She frakking hates herself for that. She hates Lee for that too, because she knows he sometimes thinks the same thing.
"Kara, if you were pregnant right now, would you keep the baby? Stop protecting the fleet, wait a couple months, and have a child that you most likely will love more than anything? I was just wondering because I think you would. I have no reason to ask, it's just, I was wondering if you ever thought about it. I don't care who the father would be. I wouldn't want to know anyway, it wouldn't be me."
